Tammy, that is correct, in that it is a personal choice. Sometime you don't have the choice, and the memories just come back at some point in your life and tell you they must now be dealt with. If you have to go looking, so be it, though I doubt any person could tell you whether they watched you be abused... being the factual aspect of this. I would be quite careful though when a therapist tells you that you could have been abused when younger, because now your brain has become focused on this. You can believe with PTSD what you choose, though PTSD tends to take any negative aspect and amplify it and even create new trauma for you that never happened. Be careful IMHO....

I would never recommend hypnotism to remember trauma, not a good method. If you think something exists, go to an EMDR expert and tell them you think it exists, though EMDR will find it if it does. EMDR is a far better method of finding hidden trauma. If it doesn't find it, then disregard it and rule it out of your mind to then concentrate on further known aspects.