Lordy girl, that ^^^^^^^ is depression, big-time.

I was in the same spot as you until about 2 weeks ago. Please don't feel bad metis, I didn't see it in myself, either. :( I just didn't give a shit about anything. My doc put me on bupropion as well. But a lot more than you :) 150 mg to start (which is the normal starting dose), and that's on top of 20 mg Paxil.

Good news is, it's working. 100%? Nope.... but I also believe that I have things to work through, and as such no pill is going to just deliver 100% perfect life. :-P But is it helping to re-plug me in to the positive, "functional" parts of my brain? Yes.

metis, how are you doing? It's been a few days, if you started the 100 mg bupropion on the 31st then you should be reaching your max plasma levels now... how's it feel?

I did have a few side-effects from the bupropion, which were driving me batty but I promised myself I'd stick through this one thing (the Wellbutrin) 'til my next doctors' appt in a week. 3 weeks was the deal. Sure enough, all but 1 side-effect has gone away. (This last one sucks, but I'm dealing, minute by minute currently)

metis, I totally understand what you were saying above, I have been there for months here this winter. :( I realize you cannot make yourself think positively, you cannot make yourself believe positive things. I tried that myself.... The computer (brain) just doesn't have that program installed. LOL ... If your problem is brain chemistry, and you have found a med that works for you, stick with it. Work with it. Be patient.

You are not permanently and unfixably broken. It's not a matter of willpower. You are doing a great job considering the pile of crap that you're being dealt here!!! Once the screwed-up chemistry is fixed, life is not nearly as hard. Hang in there, m'dear.

And please let us know how you are doing????

Bailey