Okay. Things aren't good. The psychiatrist wants to up my meds the next time he sees me (2 weeks) he just wants my body to get used to this dosage first.

It's still not good and it has come to light that with where I'm at I need to take a break from school. It's killing me to make this decision but I can't handle it right now, it's not helping me heal (it's just making it worse).

My mind isn't good. It's to the point where I don't know how I am. Like I've gotten past the point of being able to say I'm sad or down - I just don't know how I am. I'm not in a good place, but I'm trying to get myself there.

I know that it takes courage to admit to myself where I am, and what my limitations are right now. That to stop school takes more courage than to keep pushing through it. It means I have to take stock and give myself time to heal.