I agree with Morgan. I use to be funny and clowned around alot, had people around me constantly. However, I drank alot and did drugs to cover the pain and it didn't seem to affect me as much with the P.T.S.D symptoms. Eight years ago when I stopped this habit, I now had to face myself. I am not to funny anymore, I cannot hadle stress or negativity even though I portray it myself. I am not happy with myself and have a don't care attitude. The only things, I have to hold on hope to is a good husband, dog and grandson. I am short tempered and rarely see positive of myself. Thank goodness there is help. I quit meds for 2 years and did not admit for awhile that I needed them. I have accepted the fact that most likely, I will be on them the rest of my life if I want to remain alive. I truly hope everyone gets the help so desperately needed.
sunnydaze