The therapist that told me this said it about 18 years ago. I dismissed it and asked my sister (who is now dead) what she thought. She said I was safe and laughed at the thought of it.

If I was safe then how could I end up 5 blocks from my house when I was 5 years old? (I wont let my daughter leave the back yard) Not knowing where my mom was and locked out of the house. This happened all of the time. I didn't see my sister anywhere around either so how would she know. (Your right most people wouldn't know for sure unless they witnessed it)

Once when I was wondering around the neighborhood at age six I happened to bump into my brother who told me the Good Year blimp shoots bullets at little girls and I should go home. (This scared the crap out of me)

After that I didn't leave the house until the Good Year Blimp was gone. He probably did me a favor or I would have been abducted the way I wandered around the neighborhood at such a young age. I had men in cars stop and talk to me, and offer me rides. I was not safe by any means I was neglected.

Anyway, I found a place that does EMDR and will check into it. I think the price will be an issue though.

I may just let it go for awhile and let it surface on it's own (If it exists). I'm not so freaked out about it now as I was. For some reason the thoughts and feelings I had were making me shake inside and out. Then for two days I was on "lockdown" with no emotions or feelings about anything. Now I'm just plain sick of dealing with whats what.

Thanks for your input Anthony. I will sit on this for awhile and if it surfaces again I will go with the EMDR if I can afford it.

Tammy