Hi Tara, if you have not yet read the FAQ section, I strongly advise you to do such now before attempting to post in a manner that draws attention and makes reference to suicide. It is not allowed here. Please read the FAQ section thoroughly or your posts will be deleted if they mimic behaviours deemed non-acceptable here.

I understand your having a hard time with your PTSD, though so are a lot of people here. If it was allowed to draw attention then you would have hundreds all doing the same thing, talking about suicide or the like. You are here amongst people who understand, please do not attempt to play the sympathy card here. Members understand, they will respond if you just post openly and honestly, not sympathetically.

Please do not think I am dismissing your trauma, far from it. Your trauma is quite valid here, and understood. Your EMDR session obviously worked as it was meant to work, which is great. Your supposed to be in pain after facing trauma Tara, that is the exact idea. It is about making you face it, forcing you into the trauma in order to discuss it. Your thinking may be quite negative right now, though let me reassure you that you will come through this, you will come out the other side providing you keep working hard on yourself and don't give up on yourself.

Emotion is the root of all pain, you need to identify and talk about what you feel, not just the problems. You can talk to death all your trauma, though if you do not process things at the emotional level your talking serves little purpose.