Thanks Nicolette - I guess I realise that you (and maybe others here) care.

I should have said that "no-one in 'real-life' cares or understands me".

I totally appreciate all the support that I have had from this forum. But I also realise that all the help and support (and everything else) that I need/want, can not come from an internet forum.

I'm not knocking this place - it is great - a true life line, but I could really do with someone in real life who thinks I'm worth getting to know, instead of running in the other direction.

Does that make sense?