Hiya Irs

thank you for confimrming what I thought was the case in that I need to deal with the past. Now I have to figure out if it is worth me continuing with her if she cant help me do that. Will talk to her about it first though.

I'm ever so glad that the evaluations etc helped you. Just doesnt seem to be the right sort of help around here.

My present is fine as far as I am concerned if I wasnt dealing with the trauma so at least i dont have that to cope with as well. So the only real problem I have is the trauma and the ptsd. however, now I think about it there is a kind of grief there, just a different sort of grief - the guilt, the self hate etc etc. - but that all stems from the trauma and ptsd, which is all in the past.

I really need to talk to her about this. I know that. She told me to write a letter to him with everything in it and then burn it ceremoniously saying to myself "this is the beginning of the end". I hope that works but I just feel I could write a lever arch file of stuff to him not a letter. I dont feel that I can do that properly till I have come to terms with the past though so Im not gonna do that letter and will talk to her first.

Thanks so much for your post and do take care Irs