Hiy Shecat

Thank you for what you have said. Helps me to feel that I'm not just making things worse for myself by trying to face this. I've done all the stuffing in the world and look what its done to me. Its just made things so much worse.

Also thanks for the point about me having possibly missunderstood what she was saying. She told me she had suffered a similar trauma so surely she should understand that you cant just pretend it didnt happen and that you need to deal with past issues to be able to heal.

Treating the physical symptoms would be a great start but I know that the mental symptoms are going to be a lot harder and I dont think they can be treated withyout talking about the past. I will clear this up with her next time. If she did mean that we would be looking at the past to help me with the future then I am sure that she is worth sticking with. Just didnt come across that way.

She didnt exactly say "forget" the past she said to throw it all back at him and to say "Ive had enough of what he has done and how it is affecting me and im not going to let what happened continue to make me suffer" but i took it as "you should throw it all back at him and forget it". Stil seems impossible to stop it from affecting me just like that though. If it were possible i would ahve done it already. Strange how we can misinterpret things when we are messed up. I hope that it was all a misunderstanding. I really do.

Again thank you for your comments and support

Take care Shecat