I don't have any real good suggestions, but I want you to know I'm thinking about you and hope you feel better soon.

I have a similar issue with my daughter. She is 6 and has ADHD and I go crazy. My doctor suggested I put her on meds, but I refused and told him I had to find a way to deal with it.

I have panic attacks everyday when It's time to go pick her up from school and I feel so guilty. I've been forcing myself to play games and read books to her because I know when she is grown up I will be mad at myself for not paying attention to her.

I guess what I'm trying to convey is that you might feel guilt after she is gone if you hadn't taken care of her. But on the flip side you have to take care of you first because where will she be if your in the hospital? You won't do her no good while in there. You have to weight it out. Make a list of pros and cons and trust your gut feeling.

I hope this helped a bit.
Tammy