This is a part of healing, Tactman.

To heal, you must first remove yourself from the traumatic situation.

The next step is to start treatment, which for most includes both meds and therapy.

You are not expected to find your way through this alone. No one with PTSD is ... honestly I don't know anyone who's successfully worked through PTSD alone. It's just not realistic. We need help. We need guidance. But we must first make ourselves available to it.

Good. That's the way it should be. That's a normal and reasonable standard. What is not healthy is trying to be something you're not... pretending you are fine when you are not. If you are unwell, the reasonable thing to do is to get help.

When I was unwell, I stopped going on ambulance and fire calls. I realized that I was not strong enough nor healthy enough to emotionally do the job properly anymore... it wasn't fair to me, it wasn't fair to my partners, and it wasn't fair to the people I was supposed to be helping. Going on calls at that point was injurious to me. I recognized straight off that the best thing I could do for myself, my family, everybody, was to pull myself off duty and focus on healing.

It's impossible the heal when you're still being traumatized. It's like asking, "why can't I get this oil and water mix?"

That's something to tackle in therapy. I can tell you though, that that is your perception, it is not fact. You perceive that you have shamed those beliefs, but just because you see it that way doesn't mean you have shamed anyone or anything. Perception does not equal fact.

You'll need to talk to your Cmdr in Chief about that, my friend. ;) He's the one who has stifled press coverage of soldiers' deaths, while doing nothing to hamper coverage of celebrities.

Bailey