I see that you are willing to do whatever it takes to get better!! I have in the past...gone the extra mile to get to group therapy...The last one I went to was an hour's drive away...and I hated the traffic jams that I'd get into in the mornings I had an emotional problam with that as I feel TRAPPED in them....so what I would do was stay in the far left lane....that way I had open space on my left and that's how I dealt with that...also I did deep-breathing...I had people [not my friends] who would ask me why I drove so far...I answered them that I felt that I was WORTH it!!! I also drive an hour to get to my psychodoc...he's the BEST!!! and I drive 2 hours east to go to a hospital....it's the BEST too!! I DESERVE to get the BEST medical care that I can get!!!! You do too!!!! I will be watching for your post how your first day went!!! The long drive gets tiring at times...just keep saying the mantra "I AM WORTH IT"!!!!..wildfirewildone...KEEPING THE PEACE