Hi Shoshin, This might work for you now, but when it starts to lose it's effect please come in here and share so everyone can help/advise or just listen to you.

I can't speak in absolutes, but I do think what your doing will not work for very long. I tried that for awhile and had a nervous breakdown.

There has to be "balance" in everyone's life style. When you shut things out an imbalance occurs and then you start to feel uneasy.

I'm glad you felt well enough to share your story on how your coping. At least you acknowledge that there is a problem.

Take care of yourself and I hope things work out for you
Tammy