Dude, I can so relate! I have gotten myself so worked up over the crap that goes on. I kick around, murmering under my breath. Anyone looking on would surely think I had lost my mind! You are not wrong feeling the way you do, you're human. You are dealing with more than the majority of husbands out there will ever be asked to handle. It is not easy, nor will it ever be. Is it worth it? No one can answer that for you. No way in hell. Only you know what happens between the outbursts. Only you know how receptive to treatment she is. How good things are when the woman you married re-emerges.

And as far as your second post, that is so typical of my emotional rollercoaster! I get all worked up, pissed off, angry as hell, then after I have time to think about it, about what she went throught to cause her condition, I get to feeling guilty and regretful of what I may have said. It is one hell of a ride, ain't it!

Just know we are here for you, and are relying on you to be there for us. No one else knows what we are going through, and if we can't rely on each other, it only makes it that much worse.

Hang in there, dude. You have some seriously difficult questions to answer for yoruself! We'll do what we can to help.

Warren