I have written before about seeing an exposure therapist for my car accidents.

This week he wanted me to talk about child abuse. I said I didn't have anything to say about it.

He then said "I will talk then" and proceeded to describe a scene where a child is in bed and hears footsteps outside the door and then hears someone come in and feels them come and sit on their bed. He says the child tries to stay still and pretends to be sleeping because they are worried about what is going to happen. He then started describing what was about to happen. I asked him to stop as it was really upsetting me. What he said is longer than what I described above but I think that gives the jest of it.

He said I wouldn't be upset if it hadn't had happened to me and that I needed to talk about it or I would never get well and that I would never have a normal relationship.

I have been reliving his story every day since he said it. It reminded me of my niece being molested by my ex husband and I feel so guilty that I never knew until the end and that I wasn't there for her. I seem to rapidly be going in a downward spiral now. The guilt is overwhelming right now.

It is very upsetting to me and I don't like these conversations.

Is it me? Has anyone been to exposure theraphy? Is this how it is supposed to work?

Any suggestions or advice would be appreciated!

Thanks so much

Moey