Thanks Nam, I've been thinking of you as well :)

Piglet, definatly don't let depression set in!
I'm just barely crawling out of that hole, and trust me you just don't want to have to go down that road!!!

You talk about being against sleeping pills, so if you are at the point where you are willing to take diazepam... well, I know your desperate for sleep.
My advice would be to get a script from your doctor for a good "incase" med that works for you, and you don't get side-effects.
You don't have to use this medication everynight (unless your doc insists for certain reasons),
I would suggest that you only use it the night before a big event, something that you absolutely need sleep for, and probally are going to be too anxious to sleep, take the pill 10 - 11 hours (minimum 9 hours) before you have to be up.
This way, you are still in control, and you get the rest you need.
Trust me I still remember my sleepless nights.... *shiver

So far my day has been busy,
In the middle of checking my email I lost internet connection,
at first I thought it was a problem with the cable company, but my TV still worked.
Totally threw off my day... it was like I was lost for awhile there.

Ended up replanting my banana tree into a bigger pot so it can grow.
Took major effort (and my back pain is getting intolerable) but it was long overdue.

Checked computer again, and now I have Internet,
thank goodness!
lol,
I'm a true geek @ heart :)

Take care all