This is some of the confusion, in that when you first come here there is not history, though; when you combine all things into one post you can read it as "wanting sympathy" vs. venting. Venting is venting... usually comes with history I guess or people say, "I am venting" because the written word here is not the same as saying it face to face, no emotion passed in written context so you need to be quite expressive and outline emotion to words ensuring a reader understands. I would say it is impossible to master, though definitely achievable to get right the majority of the time. I guess its one off those things that comes with writing online.

Telling yourself your clueless does not help your self esteem. This is another aspect I will not enable, allowing people to put themselves down as PTSD feeds from this. If people don't kick you in the arse and put you in the right direction, such things would not allow you to build your self esteem, to build your self worth, which are important parts of healing because trauma takes so much from you in the first place and then progressively over time. I won't make judgement on your therapist though, but I will say you will likely do so the more you read here and determine whether the therapist is best for you and your condition.

Therapists are not created equally.... you want one who does not tolerate your shit, you want one who is empathetic to you, however; pushes you even when about to break in order to face your fears. PTSD feeds from fear. Unfortunately there is not such thing as facing your part of your fear, you have to face it all so you no longer fear it, which means its going to hurt you and make you ill at the mental level and physical most likely. You have an incurable disorder, it only manifests itself the more you leave it, the more you ignore it, the more you lie to it... it builds greater and destroys you. That is a harsh reality of PTSD... PTSD is a killer, have no doubt. It takes many lives.

My question to you is this. Has this actually done anything positive for you other than feed a negative desire? The negative desire to to fuel your self pity to excuse your behaviour, your actions, your reactions!

Yes and no. It is a legitimate reason that you may not be able to work, though it does not mean you cannot work. You may not be capable of work right now, but if you get out of this sympathy stage and into actioning, you could likely begin working in the future.... actually, highly possible. PTSD is not necessarily an excuse for crying, as crying is an emotional outlet, yes... and PTSD feeds from negative emotion, yes. Though that is a touch and go type question I believe. If your crying a lot, then is it excessive? If it is, then what could you do to rectify that?

I know you might be unsteady here presently, though I have seen people come here from 20 years of therapy and walk away from here six months later a completely different, more focused, confident and able to manage their PTSD more effectively, all because the community empathises but pushes one another as a whole. I think you will be just fine Tara... learn, learn and learn from the information sections.