I think it's quite common for people who come here at first to go through these feelings. It's a new experience, finding so many people suffering similarly but through different trauma's. I agree, it is a great shame that those who have contributed to society have come out suffering with PTSD.

So, there is one person who served their country, or in the emergency services and they have PTSD as a result. That is very sad. You have another, who was traumatised as a little innocent child. That's very sad too. And another, who was just driving their car, just like anybody else... and they crash and come out with PTSD. That's awful too. Someone else, who happens to be walking by, and they witness something awful. Again, very sad.

How somebody got PTSD does not indicate whether another's PTSD is more valid. Nor does it indicate that you're trauma's indicate you to be a lesser person just because you're trauma was not gained during a direct 'act of goodness' through contribution to society. Similarly, some people who end up with PTSD through serving their country, or being in the emergency services sometimes feel guilt... and that their pain is not valid, because their colleagues did not get PTSD, thus they feel 'I must be weak', or less of a person. This is also not true, nor fair to bring good/bad, weakness/strength into the equation of PTSD. It has absolutely nothing to do with it.

Nobody deserves PTSD. No one person here is more worthy of help or support, or less. Nobody chooses PTSD. There is no league table here segregating who has what trauma, or why etc. Simply that we all suffer PTSD, and we all muck in and help ourselves and others when we can.

To me, I am reading someone who has issues with guilt and shame related to their own traumas. Someone who is perhaps questioning whether they 'brought it all on themselves', and that they can similarly 'just get over it', because they view their subsequent trauma's as having an aspect of self-blame/guilt. The blame-game will not help you 'get over it', that is for sure. I also think this is an important something you need to look at, in order to deal with your own traumas.

Yes I have. But I learned that it was about how I felt around my trauma's... I suddenly noticed that a lot of the time my thoughts are questioning if I am somehow wrong, I somehow caused it all, it's all my fault, I should just do this, I should have done that, if I was a better person I would not be like this, I am like this BECAUSE I am a bad person... it was all specific to my own trauma's, and all about how I felt about myself. And lack of understanding myself and the impact that these things had and has on me.

Often this is what loneliness with pain does. A few years back, until I realised that I was not the only one suffering like I was, I thought I was the only person on the planet suffering the way I was. I thought nobody could ever understand my pain. Of course, this was actually quite a reasonable statement to make to myself, as until then I had not known of PTSD. I both blamed myself for my feelings, because I thought I was just 'not letting go' when I wanted and needed to, and also felt angry because I had such trouble trying to 'let go' and 'get over it', and I was suffering so much despite my constant attempts to change that. I also had a lot of trouble getting what I had gone through validated by people around me, and this made me feel angrier and even more so that nobody understood, and nobody knew how much pain I was in. Logically, I had a sense that I was wrong to feel this way, but emotionally I didn't have the knowledge I have now to know differently.

Why should the 'goodness' of another make you question you're pain and fairness of this? Do you feel not as good as a person? That you somehow deserve your pain, or that you somehow shouldn't be in as much pain, because other's are 'worse off' because their trauma's are 'more worthy' somehow?