Lovely Shoshin,
I'm glad it made you feel good. I hope you might look at mantras too, see my response to spiritofnow re mantras Please come back, if you feel like it, to let us know how things go and just to express where you are at, maybe purge if you feel like it. I'm happy to offer advice from my experiences at any time.

I'm sure your wife's heart is aching for you. You deserve to feel good about that.