Velvet, wow, you've had it pretty rough up until now. As I see it, your life is increasingly getting better. More stability. I don't think anyone here can give you a diagnosis. You must go to a doctor (a specialist in trauma is better yet), to get a diagnosis. In my opinion, you certainly have had experiences that are traumatic enough.

I so totally understand the "trying to find love in all the wrong places" thing. I did that to. When we were not shown as children how true love is shown, we don't know what to look for. We equate attention with love. As we all know, that's not always true.

Welcome aboard Velvet. I hope that you feel comfortable enough here that you go into more depth on how each of these experiences made you feel. You have a long road ahead of you towards healing, but I believe you can do it. One trauma at a time.