Samsara,

I am back in our home today and so far so good. I need to quit the smoking that helped get me through my last manic/depressive cycle because my wife has chronic asthma, but we talked it through and she gets that it is going to take a little while, and I promised to abide by certain rules...

Part of what made me ready to come home is the weariness of self-imposed solitude. It was tolerable but not happy. Also, had a big falling out with the two friends I was leaning on after they lied to me. Pulled my perimeter in tight and realized my wife and home are the safest place at the moment, even if not ideal.

I am familiar with mantras...I've been a Buddhist for going on twenty years, and have had success with mantras. I recommend their use when accompanied by some instruction/context. Good stuff.

Thanks again for the warm words.