For Samsara,

After reading one of your posts about your beloved BB I remembered something that may or may not help him???

I too have felt as if I was 'evil', nobody actually told me this - I guess the past and all of its complexities reinforced this feeling.

Anyway, I remember the feeling from when I was very young and have up unitl recently had this feeling - it was so much a part of me that I guess I never looked at it and scrutinised it!

I will use an example - A school trip to St Pauls catherderal in London - I was really scared and anxious when entering into the church and whilst we walked around - I was so sure that this holly place would REVEAL THAT I AM EVIL. I really believed this!!!!

It upsets me so! But if it helps reassure your BB that he is not alone (if you can share this info with him) I know it just has to help him alongside the beautiful support you give to him.

We are not the evil ones! ( I still feel uneasy walking in churches because of this feeling although it has dwained) and still partially believe that if I was to look directly at a clergy person they would see the evil - it happened on a NLP course I was on last week - I was sure the guy hosting it with all of his NLP techniques would see through me and see my badness - something else to take to therapy with me.

Thanks once again Samsara and I hope that it helps him believe in himself x