Hmm well I guess my problem is too, I've never been in love, so I probably don't understand that aspect of it at all. And Nic, welcome to the forum and I'm sorry if I've sounded insensitive, I think it's good you're able to date and I don't consider you or myself "damaged". Just I don't get why people would want to date someone who was really ill. I still don't get it really, but I do thank everyone for their answers, it has given me some insight.