There sure are days I just can't go. And I get off my ass and go anyway, because I can't live like this and the way I did! I have never missed an appointment, you can't. In the beginning of seeing docs I had posted somewhere that there were claws marks on the door way, I really am not overly fond of one of my docs, but I don't see her much. I have gone looking like crap and thinking this guy better be happy I just showered as it took more than I had that day to give to just do that. Not going is not an option. Sometimes you are sick, stress can make you very ill. You go anyway. You have days you don't "get into it" and you need a talented therapist who can pull it out and give you work to do. Once she goes and is into it she is likely to have ups and downs. And don't be shocked by what looks like total breakdowns through it either.

If she is in counseling I can't stress enough to others to go with their spouse to occasional appointments to work on the relationship and keep it strong during this. Every once in a while when things are strained my husband goes too, it helps when doc sheds a little light on how my mind is working and I can't put it in a way for someone else to get. I often wondered if some of the crap we type on here to other sufferers looks like jibberish to normal people! Point is even though we are the ones with PTSD it does not mean you do not suffer too, and a little bit of help goes a long way when everyone is trying to keep it together and it seems like it is falling apart faster than you can put it back together.

Personally I see a guy for CBT once a week, my appointment is always the same day, same time, set in stone as like that I can't forget and I feel obligated to go. He also is the one who will give us counsel, he and I go into details, when my husband is there we do not, he helps my husband and I understand where the other is coming from and it helps as my doc already knows all the details. I also see a shrink. Used to also be weekly but now it is every month - 2 months.

Therapy is not easy, this site is not easy, having PTSD is not easy, healing is not easy, living with us certainly is not easy, but anything worth a damn never is now is it? I hope she joins us soon, it helps when we poke at each other to get help we need. I wish y'all well.