I need to work on this but I am not sure how. My family doctor and psychologist know...my family md reorders two weeks at a time so it doesn't get too out of hand. They just don't seem as concerned as I do but i just feel so overwhelmed and stuck. My back really does hurt and I need them to function. I am not overdosing in the way that I am trying to kill myself......the pain control doctor also told me.."I have people that take triple what you are taking" I have been a palliative care nurse and never gave this much oral medication (injectable or IV...but they were actively dying.....I just feel a bit lost.

I know I have to work on this....the plan is to decrease them again after my next lumbar epidural and joint block which is March 26...I am still confused as to whether I am doing the right thing. UUUGGGHHHH...this is just frustrating me. I just don't understand....this has been going on 2 years this July and they just keep increasing the dose when the epidurals have won off.