Shoshin

....I get a little bit closer :-)

I am so glad that this internal out pouring onto this virtual page has some relevance for you - this place is akin to being in school eh? Gold stars for Shoshin and Spirit wohooo!:-)

I am sorry to hear that you had a rough night. I really want to give you some wise insightful words - how about this...? Something is happening, everytihng's different but everything is fine - this is the good stuff, yesterday is only what you leave behind...............Your just beginning, you haven't missed it, it's all ahead of you and you know what to do.......

Things are looking up Shoshin - you and your wife are forging a new pathway in order for you to both continue sharing this journey - side by side eh! You can do it!!!!!! You are a strong and intelligent soul - you are peicing this altogether and soon the pircture will become clearer - lifting the veil of fog!

Panic attacks are subjective to the person who suffers with them which is why I am holding back from wise words - they are my achilles heel. I used to do anything to avoid them - now whilst starting the therapy the flood gates have openened and I am more accepting (at times and depending on where). I guess being kind to yourself is key as they do create a lot of pressure for body and mind - a warm bath with relaxing bubbles and lavender ( I know you are a rugged cowboy male) but even they need to soak and chill:-) Oh and sleep - not so easy I know but have you tried hot milk before bed - it has ben reported that it contains the hormone melatonin and the amino acid tryptophan which is related to sleep and relaxation, importantly they are good routines to get into.

I hope your Monday was another day forwards on this journey to becoming whole!

It's times like these you learn to live again...