Hi Kazzy.
Thanks for the note. It's so good to have someone to talk to that is going through the same thing. I think when you're the one doing the waiting..1 hour / 5 hours...apart may as well be a zillion. I too, am not the most patient person in the world but I'm trying. It's been a week since I have heard from my BF. It's been about 6 days since his parents heard from him. I feel so completely helpless. Parts of the day I find I'm ok and I do lots of self talk...knowing there is nothing I can do, I still have to live my life and be happy. Then there are the other parts of the day..when I think.."am I nuts to be putting myself through this..why can't I find myself a man without a major mental illness? But I look at his picture and all the good times we have...that's all it takes to get me back to where I am waiting...and hoping and praying that he is ok and will come back soon. I am a psych nurse who works with people who have a chronic and persistant mental illness (primarily schizophrenia)...but my occupation is not helping me here...and it doesn't help my own thoughts...other than I have developed a new appreciation for my clients. I am thankful that I have started counselling on my end, helps keep things in perspective and reminds me to take care of myself. I hope that aside from tearing yourself apart, you are able to remember to do nice things for YOU....you deserve it. I hope we get to chat again soon, it helps so much. Thanks again.