I have had 2 major impacts in my life that left me suffering with PTSD, I am on the waiting list for CBT, I find myself watching videos of 1 off my incidents, and videos of similar incidents to my 2nd event. As much as I want to let the feelings and thoughts and visions go away I keep watching and reliving the events and both events now merge in my sleep I have come to mix the bad dreams up between them, I know its not doing me any good watching videos of the events but I cant help it. Is this normal???