ok here goes..suffering ptsd/bpd/ocd/bipolar/adhd/fibromyalgia/anxiety/stress/chronic depression and a few others i forgot..highly inteligent,but fcuked in the head..im from the n.s.w. highlands australia...47yo ex truckie..ex smoker..ex alcoholic..ex biker...ex member of society...married with 3 kids.sometimes im scared of my own shadow..sometimes i explode in violence.
im constantly trying new hobbies..usualy mastering them quickly before walking away and forgeting them totaly,although guitar is a constant challenge/therapy...i think outside the square and my mechanical expertise is in demand,although im agorophobic nowdays and couldnt bother....have no technical training..completely self taught but offered work in engineering..metal fabrication and the timber industry...i only work by myself and find logging and firewood my best option..but only a few months a year if i feel up to it.
i cant relate to others ,even family and dont have any emotions/attachment with my siblings or wifes friends.i do everything at 110% and wont except any less from anyone..hence i only work alone.im totaly monogamous and violent towards any threat/potential suiter for my wife...i trust no one..no one!...im a pretty sad case i suppose,but im stuck with it.i have some psychic ability ,but who believes anyone like me...i cant make eye contact with strangers..prefering not to meet anyone.i freak people out..not intentionaly...cannot converse with others..computers have opened up a whole new world to me....i give free fire wood to pensioners and free cancer treatment information to sufferers...those who believe can survive...most dont believe...they die!