Kazzy, ultimately only you can make the decisions of what is right for you. I hope you find what is best for you. Being tough is one thing but chosing to be "ignorant" can only be a potential for a bad situation. If you are not dealing with reality how can you properly assess the situation? Please be careful that ignorance does not turn into denial.

We all want the best for both you and your boyfriend. Just remember you are responsible for your happiness and you can only walk the path you choose...not one someone else creates for you.