Herc,
I know how you feel. Reading other diaries is an uncomfortable feeling. For me, when I read them it reminds me that others are going through hell too. I feel less alone. I also use it (at times) to avoid my own crap. Easier to try and help others than deal with my own shit.
You may be able to delve into others diaries later in your healing, but right now it just isn't for you. Are you selfish???? Yes, IN A GOOD WAY!!!!! You are concentrating on healing yourself. When I was in therapy my T used to remind me all the time that I needed to be a little more selfish and pay more attention to me, and my healing than to others. I still struggle with this.....JMO!!!! |