Thank you Nicolette.
I know you're right. When I read it in black and white, it doesn't sound like he wants to be with me. He wants to have me in his life at a distance and on his terms which is what he needs right now. But it's not what I need, I'm getting to know that more and more each day. Focusing on the now is a challange, but I feel a little less pain as the days pass. I will always be there for him, I guess just not in a romantic way. I can't put my life on hold wishing for what I knew "could have been".
I am astounded at all the wonderful advice I have been given on this site. There is no way I can repay the kindness you have all shown. I will continue to view and interact with all of you and offer what I can. Blessings.