You are not alone though Tlight we are all here for you and understand aspects of your pain. You have just not met people who are educated enough to know better.

I am not with my partner due to the effects of PTSD and not becuase he is a bad person he just felt that he could not give me what I derserve. It hurt him to see and hear my pain to the point that he felt as though he was swallowing poison. Not everyone can help us carry the load. They all have their own issues for one. Even the friend who shouted at you had her problems and was not able to comfort you and understand you because of them.

I guess in the past if I had an experience that was negative I would almost intergrate that experience in a numerical fashion, for e.g; number 56, people are unreliable. I would add this to my list and it would become another reason to carry on feeling the way I was. Peolpe are frail, ignorant, unthoughtful, misguided they are just a product of their experiences or lack of. However, there ARE beautiful people everywhere and even they are not perfect :-)

I sense that you are angry! Its okay to be angry just ensure that it has a positive direction.

Sending out good thoughts for you.

Spirit x