I can't join in this forum anymore. The constant references to family and spouses and children as if they are a normal part of ordinary life make me want to commit mass murder. I don't understand why people don't pressurise governments to bring in compulsory abortion, I think bringing unwanted babies that you just want to torture and **** is the most evil thing that anyone can do, and most people support it because manufacturing babies and marrying people and pretending that families are 'normal' or 'natural' is the prevailing convention, even on sites that are supposed to be for people who have been subject to evil and know the truth about human nature. I came on this site trying to feel like I was 'normal' but it's just reinforced how much of an evil freak I really am. If people have 'trauma' and are surrounded by people who think they are great and lovely, where are people like me supposed to go? All the support sites and helplines take it for granted that everyone has people that love them and want to care about them. It just proves that I should have been killed long ago. Why doesn't anyone anywhere provide support for children who are in genuine need? And why do they blame adults who have nowhere to go but places where it is the norm that people have people that love and care for them?