Such intellectual prowess!

Thank you to all four of you for your insightful and interesting replies.

I guess feeling alone in the world is somewhat paradoxical for me; my 'all alone in the world' feeling, is self-imposed yet I also feel confined within the parameters of this Universe (Unus) to be one and alone! I hope that makes sense to you?

I totally get that we are interdependent parts of a whole, its just that sometimes I do not feel like a be-longer to the whole or perhaps I don't want to be?!

I will try to explain how this feels to me; its almost like I was born without a protective layer and so all that I have experienced has penetrated my very being, some good some not so good! However, the beauty that I know is still there just seems to get overlooked. Is it mad to feel like you feel all of the wrongs in this world personally? Do I feel this way because I have been wronged for so much of my life? Is it this which makes me feel alone?

I stand alone much of the time watching, observing and feel so disconnected from myself yet I see their pain and suffering, but they all just carry on pretending.

Its like everyone is listening but no-one is really hearing? Or not hearing what I see, ha ha! Tying myself up in knots here

I feel scared to reveal this as I know 'they' don't get what I see. I used to call them, 'the others' it is how life feels sometimes.

Ha ha - maybe it is because of all that I have witnessed and felt which makes me feel as though I stand apart (sounds reasonable). I am sensitive to pain even when it is not mine. (maybe my head is just to far up my own a*se/ass?)

I do believe that the long and weary path to PTSD and beyond it has in fact influenced how I feel. I am a through time being, I stand on my time line and see all that has gone before me and all that could be/what i wish for - I just need to stand in time and experience the here and now, maybe I won't feel so alone then! Yeah that's it I am constantly standing outside of time and looking in.

Perhaps!

Spiritx