purdy, i have been where you are. please step back and breathe! i care about you and what happens to you, even though you don't know me. Please be kind to yourself.i am sorry that you feel you have no one. i had no one growing up. my mother tried to kill me and abused me all my life, my father terrorized the whole family, my granfather sexually abused me when i was so little (3-6) none of us are here because we stumped our toe. please don't be upset with me because i have found a man that loves me now, and children that i managed to raise in spite of myself. i feel like i deserve that, and so do you. you have to heal before you can share your love again, and it is possible!
please im me if i can help you in any way, even just listening--i DO care.