My name is Terri,

I 'grew-up' in San Jose, CA. Moved at 9 to eastern OR. No memories prior to 9, then just hiding out in the alfalfa fields, under the spruce with the owls as my only friends, and hiding on top of a roof with a knife, ready to kill myself. So those are most of my 'conscious' memories.

Left home at 14, my mom abandoned me to an older sister, then she and her husband kicked me out for sleeping with a boyfriend after only 4 months of being there. Lived on the streets for a few weeks, got a job at a drive-in and lived in the projection room. No one really cared, 5 older brothers and sisters said I made my bed.......years later, they still blame me for something?

Managed to get to school. Have degrees in Math and Biology. I'm a biologist now, working in the PNW, Snohomish, but keep getting abusive bosses, sexual harassment........the whole nine works. Never been safe at work.

Moved to Durango, CO and Taos, NM with my 'teacher' to work with another spiritual teacher. My teacher ended up abusing me. I had a complete breakdown while managing a hotel in CO. Don't remember driving back to Seattle at all. Scary.

Now, in between jobs, doing therapy, waiting for SSD. Developed Fibro in 1996, horrible pain, paralysis, bed-ridden with no help.
Every boyfriend has been my Dad, the triggering making me insane.

Finally committed to healing. Looking for work. Two real suicide attempts, but I don't want to give up. I want to help to save nature. I adore nature. I adore God, I meditate and believe, even with all the crap.

I'll be 43 this year, and have a lot of hope my life can finally begin.

Ter