for me it was a vicious cycle of cutting then feeling shame for cutting leading to more cutting or self harm in other ways. I get the part about cutting in other places to hide it, my safe place is on my stomach by my rib cage on each side, not too proud of that either. I guess it has been about 7 months since I really cut. I did take a pair of scissors 2 days ago and press it deep against my arm but I didn't move it or slice at it I just pressed it. It left a mark but it went away in a day or so. Strange, but it actually feels really good, not painful at all. I hate it though.