They may have experienced bad times but not like PTSD hell.

I feel it's one happy family that I'm not in.

I'm screened off, watching on unable to fit in to that world anymore.

This is totally me! ESPECIALLY AROUND HOLIDAYS .

This is what causes me to feel disconnected from the world and isolate even further. I listen to my colleagues planning events with family and friends and feel I am missing a big part of life. It's so depressing to watch from the outside.

Do you think that some day we will feel part of this again?