Dear purdyamos -

I really felt for you when I read your post. I don't know exactly what you're going through, but I do get that you are alone and unloved. I can tell you what happend to me and hopefully you can take some comfort from knowing my story too. I went through a deadly restaurant robbery where I lost a good friend and two others were also shot. I had been through many emotional, psychological and physical abuses before that, but this incident really set me off. After the robbery happened, I slowly lost all the "friends" that I had. My parents wouldn't even let me live in their house while I was on disability and afraid of the world. I went through a trial with know one at my side besides my lawyer, facing a litany of insurance lawyers who's contempt for me and my "disease" were palpable. SO many times I lay curled up in my bed, under the covers, wanting to die from the lonlieness and pain. I think there are more people out there that can relate to you if you let them. Maybe this can be your thread. I hope I was able to help in some small way.