Nicolette & Deedlight,

I just had an attempt a couple of months ago. My 'friend' picked me up from the hospital, still all drugged up.

Anyway, long story short, the first thing my 'carer' said when I walked in the door was "I"m going to California early." First words out of his mouth. I said, so you are abandoning me? Then my 'friend' proceeded with a verbal tyrade on what a victim I was, etc.

without the help of my T at this time, I would have blamed myself. He was the one that triggered my attempt, yelling at me, "I"m so sick of your self-pity". Next thing I remember, I'm in the hospital, my T called the cops and they hauled me off in handcuffs cause I grabbed one guys balls when he asked 'what's going on?"

I've since ELIMINATED these people from my life. None of this was my fault! They are selfish people with their own crap going on and they dumped it on me and it very nearly killed me.

They still won't own up to it.
So don't ever blame yourself for relationships gone bad. People have their own issues and you working on yours brings up what they hate about themselves. We've had enough self blame. I mean REALLY.