TLight,

I hear and feel your words

I would think that concentrating on forgiving others at this point in time maybe asking too much of you!?

Perhaps you need to work through all of the anger that you have concerning all those that you feel have betrayed you and let you down. You need to process your own pain before you can begin to forgive others?! You have an absolute right to do that (this is the healing process).

I feel that putting yourself under the pressure to try to be an all forgiving person is perhaps not being fair to yourself - it will come in time when you are ready. You are mindful that you want to forgive and that is enough for now.

Does this makes sense to you; the person that I have realised that I have needed to forgive the most was/is 'myself', for I have behaved terribly to myself at times and I am extremely judgemental and my own harshest critc? If this speaks to you then I would suggest that learning to forgive yourself and having compassion for 'you' is your first priority! The rest wil come....

I guess what I am saying is that forgiving others is not necessarily the immediate key to unlock the door to healing. Processing the pain and learning to be kind to you is - IMHO :-)

You are an amazing beautiful creature!

You will learn to trust again when you learn to trust in yourself!

Spirit x