I've always slapped my own face when I've gotten upset.

I have always banged my head hard against the wall when I can't stop the agony in my soul.

At 14, I left home, mom abandoned me to my sister's. She kicked me out after a month. I slept with a man in her bed and got caught. When I came home from community college trying to get a GED, my stuff was in paper sacks and I walked off, alone into the streets of Salem.

Lived in a projection room in a drive-in movie theater where a man gave me a job. Started doing drugs.

When I was 23, I had to commit my father to Steilcom mental hospital. He was threatening to kill my mom constantly. I had to help her. While waiting in the ER, him strapped to a bed, he said I "Always were such a good cock sucker."
I think my father raped me in my mouth starting around the age of three.:crazy: