I agree, I finally arrived at the same conclusion that its time to move on and let what happens happen. Took a long time to get there. I suppose it took a while for my emotions to catch up with the reality of the situation.

If I have any anger, it is only toward the perpetrator of the assault which led to the PTSD in the first place. That person probably continues to blisfully live a self-centered, drug-hazed life, uninterested and unaware of how seriously he damaged someone. He has no clue I even exist, but his actions ended up inflicting a lot of pain on me too.

I know my decision may not be right for everyone, but I'm at peace with things now.