Thanks Spirit,

No, I almost ordered a book yesterday off of Amazon, then my survival money crap got in the way. Like Wowo, a whole 12 bucks........gonna break my life.
I'm going to just do it now! Breaking old habits.

HOw am I feeling today?

Hopeful, rested, I've been meditating, like a lot! The tension in my body seems to be taking a respite. I need to remind myself to keep this up.........not back slide.

Scared. I'm going to work three days a week at a nursery 'round the corner. I start tomorrow! The owners seem like 'safe' people. If it's a good experience, it will be the FIRST good work experience of my entire life.

Calm too........like I've made some progress?