Thanx Cindy...what an ineresting thread because I am feeling so alone right now....I usually feel more alone at holidays and in times when I need help and the only one to help is me. I am almost forcing myself to even come to the forum and that is me just wanting to be alone I guess and often I don't want to write anything when I am having a bad time because I feel like it is harder to change my negative thoughts and I don't want to sound like a whiner