I've always called my loneliness "living in a bubble". For me, it's almost an out of body experience, or maybe I'm so engulfed in being inside of myself that I manifest this feeling of being out of body because I'm detaching. Part of the reason I dislike going to the store is because I don't even want to speak to the cashier when I'm checking out. I start thinking about things like "what if she starts asking other questions beyond 'how are you" and it freaks me out.

I'm a zoner. I zone out all of the time. Someone could be talking to me and I won't hear a word their saying because I'm trying to ease myself by zoning out which I find extremely peaceful.

It's a strange feeling when I think about it: being here, but not.

Best,
Rachel