My self esteem is getting better.

I noticed yesterday that I wasn't pushing myself to be the best at cutting the little plants. I didn't feel like I was beng watched, like I was going to get hi any minute.

I noticed that I felt like I had nothing to prove to anyone. That I could just do the task at hand, and not be hyperviligant or feel like I wasn't good enough, or get in trouble at any minute.

I'm making progress, now I just hope my health will get better.