When I woke up this afternoon I had a message from my from my ex-friend.....stating to call her if I wanted too.....but she would only be home for the next 30 minutes.....I haven't the slightest idea what time that was because I gave up a long time ago in keeping the day and time on my machine.....You know....I am honestly not hurt about her actions to end our relationship....I figured it wouldn't be long before she would be calling me back as she needs me more than I need her....another thing I've recognized though is that I presently don't want any part of a relationship with her.....IMO her telling me to call her in the next half hour is rather controlling of her....I am feeling too good to have any desire to contact her whatsover.....and I have no guilt!!!! To forcefully have to for my health....very firmly "lay the law" down.... and refuse her attempts at belittle me is not a friendship!!I thank you all for your support!!! It came down to the fact that I had to add more meds to my regimen I was soooooo overwhelmed.....No way I'm going to let myself be guilted in reconnecting with her....To me that would be like taking poison and waiting for someone else to die.....I also am concerned with my mom going into the hospital for 48 hours starting early tomorrow morning [Tues] she's 77 and that concerns me very much...I have more energy to deal with that now that I don't have my ex-friend draining me!!! I have several other friends so it's not like I'm alone....which is very good.....and I'm not draining them either....I keep wanting to say that I feel so FREE!!!! FINDING PEACE AND LOVING IT