Anyway, Way too many horrible job experiences to even convey here. I realize now what a victim I was.

Finally finished my degree after a series of abusive jobs I would't leave cause I thought I just had to endure the suffering, or else I was a quitter.

Finally got my degree, thought I'd get some respect. Worked for Environmental Consulting firm. Wrote a Biological Assessment for impacts to ESA listed fish on the Cowlitz. The head Biologist wanted my to 'calculate' the aquatic impact area based on studies down on underwater sound travel. This was said in a conference call I was in on.

I spent three days researching. Calculated the best I could what the extent of impact for harassment and harm, all kinds of mathematical models I cited. This was in a riverine environment, so not many studies done there, so I had to make some assumptions and back them up with logic. Wrote an extensive reply.
My boss called me in the office, got another biologist on the speaker phone who had worked for him from New Zealand, called in the other three Bios in the office. They all totally tore my work apart, an hour of not construtive critcism...........just humiliation. Said I'd taken the whole question and over complicated it. I said, "she said she wanted calculations!" He said, "there's bends in the river, you don't listen, you just want to toot your own horn." Exact words. His intention was to humiliate me. I was humiliated..........

Left just in shock that day. The next day I picked up Mocha's for everyone. I put a whole box of chocolate laxatives in his...............had to do something to fight back.
He continued to pick on me. I would just shut down. Stand behind my desk and criticize every word I used in a document for hours. One night, he kept me to 9pm, criticizing. I thanked him the next day. That's how much of a doormat I was. Finally, coudln't take it anymore. Walked out on morning. Went home and sunk into a depression that I'd never experienced before in my life.
Finally met with a therapist after getting out of bed only to pee for a month.........She wouldn't take responsibility of me until I was hospitalized.

Shouldn't tell therapist's right off the bat that your considering blowing away people.

Then I found my current T. She too wanted me in a top notch trauma hospital right away,but I couldn't afford it. Decided to do it outpatient.
That was two years ago.